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Somehow I entirely missed ye olde days of LJ, which is a shame, because I probably would have liked it. I'll probably just use this place for fandom-related lists & notes to self.
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Rec List: Unhealthy Stucky
Feb. 11th, 2022 07:03 pmBad Guys Made Them Do It
KO'd by buckybleeds
Rumlow makes Steve rape an unconscious Bucky. (+ happy fluffy ending!)
geological time by seinmit
Hydra makes Steve rape Bucky.
the second time as farce by seinmit
In Civil War, dark!Zemo makes Bucky-as-the-Winter-Soldier rape Steve to inflict maximum emotional distress.
WS programming kicks in
Objects Contain the Possibility of All Situations by BrighteyedJill
Someone triggers Bucky's WS programming and forces him to “administer punishment” to (rape) Steve.
Give Me Your Filth by Dira Sudis
Bucky goes into WS mode and re-enacts his trauma on / rapes Steve. Steve is sadly understanding of the whole thing.
Hydra!Steve
kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep by voxofthevoidBucky and Steve were both Winter Soldiers. They have unique, twisted relationship; in the present, it's not quite noncon, but it is Extremely Unhealthy.
love me with your sad eyes, drain me of my color by voxofthevoid
WS!Steve and Cap!Bucky, who never acted on his feelings back in the ‘40s, but still has them now.
tear me to pieces, skin to bone (hello, welcome home) by voxofthevoid (this is a 5-part series!)
Cap!Bucky finds ex-Winter-Soldier!Steve and is drawn into an extremely unhealthy, abusive relationship with the man he is now. Unconditional devotion taken to a terrible (and sexy) extreme. “ride or die for better or for worse, common sense and morals be damned”
Rec List: HTP absolute faves
Feb. 11th, 2022 06:36 pmA lot of 'em are classics for a reason.
The Only Animal by BrightEyedJill
In the 1940s, Hydra breaks Bucky through rape. Graphic mind-fuck. Bucky always perseveres to the end, especially when someone else’s life is on the line... only by the end, he’s entirely lost his bearings. Terrifying.
Daybreak by throttlegainwell
Hydra makes the WS rape Steve, while also making him pretend to be a fellow prisoner. Eventually the ruse is revealed.
Catastrophe (Breeds Strength) by sock_bealady
Rumlow makes the WS rape Steve while the Avengers are made to watch.
Excellent characterization, as each individual approaches a terrible situation in different ways. Psychologically devastating. Ch. 3 (onlooker Nat POV) just about destroyed me, in the best way. Steve and the WS talking *at* one another, promising to protect one another, despite the situation.
To Build a Better World by asocialconstruct
Hydra wins. Rumlow has a weird obsession with raping Sam. Sam POV. Tons of despair.
Really great tone / narrative voice, setting details, & fight sequences. Solid characterization of weird Hydra machismo & military/medical stuff; dark humor & pop culture references. Energy reminds me of Clint's AoU line: “the city is flying, we're fighting an army of robots, and I have a bow and arrow. None of this makes sense. But I'm going back out there...”
Blood from a Stone by shinelikethunder
Hydra/Steve gangbang.
A paradox to blame by accrues
Walker turns out to be a member of Hydra & a rapist. Bucky dissociates.
For Science by CluckU, Mumble_Bee
Medical torture porn, graphic noncon, well-earned comfort, well written fight scenes/action. Sam POV.
Chapter 5 is a blessing and a curse for me due to a squick of mine. And yet! I adore this beyond belief. Things get progressively more miserable (compliment) until chapter 8.
Lamb and Martyr by Dira Sudis
Bucky can only get off if he's being a sadist. Steve does his best to let him, even if it can only be good for one of them at a time.
Ch. 5 = rape play as themselves, before the rest of the Avengers burst in and try to "save" Steve from being raped.
between scylla and charybdis by refusals
Hydra kept photographic evidence of Bucky’s extensive sexual abuse. Bucky offers sexual favors to (a horrified) Sam to keep his secrets.
Winter Soldier era
The Only Animal by BrightEyedJill
In the 1940s, Hydra breaks Bucky through rape. Graphic mind-fuck. Bucky always perseveres to the end, especially when someone else’s life is on the line... only by the end, he’s entirely lost his bearings. Terrifying.
Daybreak by throttlegainwell
Hydra makes the WS rape Steve, while also making him pretend to be a fellow prisoner. Eventually the ruse is revealed.
Catastrophe (Breeds Strength) by sock_bealady
Rumlow makes the WS rape Steve while the Avengers are made to watch.
Excellent characterization, as each individual approaches a terrible situation in different ways. Psychologically devastating. Ch. 3 (onlooker Nat POV) just about destroyed me, in the best way. Steve and the WS talking *at* one another, promising to protect one another, despite the situation.
To Build a Better World by asocialconstruct
Hydra wins. Rumlow has a weird obsession with raping Sam. Sam POV. Tons of despair.
Really great tone / narrative voice, setting details, & fight sequences. Solid characterization of weird Hydra machismo & military/medical stuff; dark humor & pop culture references. Energy reminds me of Clint's AoU line: “the city is flying, we're fighting an army of robots, and I have a bow and arrow. None of this makes sense. But I'm going back out there...”
Blood from a Stone by shinelikethunder
Hydra/Steve gangbang.
Post-TFATWS
A paradox to blame by accrues
Walker turns out to be a member of Hydra & a rapist. Bucky dissociates.
For Science by CluckU, Mumble_Bee
Medical torture porn, graphic noncon, well-earned comfort, well written fight scenes/action. Sam POV.
Chapter 5 is a blessing and a curse for me due to a squick of mine. And yet! I adore this beyond belief. Things get progressively more miserable (compliment) until chapter 8.
Post-HTP Aftermath
Lamb and Martyr by Dira Sudis
Bucky can only get off if he's being a sadist. Steve does his best to let him, even if it can only be good for one of them at a time.
Ch. 5 = rape play as themselves, before the rest of the Avengers burst in and try to "save" Steve from being raped.
between scylla and charybdis by refusals
Hydra kept photographic evidence of Bucky’s extensive sexual abuse. Bucky offers sexual favors to (a horrified) Sam to keep his secrets.
2021 in Review: My MCU Fanfiction
Jan. 3rd, 2022 08:28 pm* = my favorites
TFATWS-based
A Measure of Control* (Zemo/Bucky, dubcon, E)
Zemo has started a new life in Madripoor. He decides he needs a bodyguard, and he knows just how to call Bucky to heel.
Formula 176 (Zemo/Bucky, dubcon, E) [sex pollen]
In the aftermath of Nagel's lab explosion, Bucky is accidentally dosed with a potent experimental aphrodisiac. Zemo lends a helping hand.
ounce of honey, pound of flesh (Walker/Zemo, Bucky/Zemo, noncon, E) [Slavery AU]
Instead of pardoning Bucky, the government mandates that he get sold into slavery. He gets bought by one John Walker, who has a few unpleasant surprises up his sleeve... most of which are reserved for his other captive, Zemo.
Proof (Zemo/Bucky, dubcon, E)
Zemo offers to sell the Winter Soldier to Selby, but she wants proof of his obedience.
Captain America canon divergence
let him drown if you love him* (Steve/Bucky, Bucky/Hydra agents, noncon, M)
Hydra captured Steve as he lay unconscious on the riverbank. Months later, the man who finds the Winter Soldier is no longer Captain America.
Between Cleveland and Siberia* (Karpov/Bucky, Zemo/Bucky, noncon, E)
Instead of killing Karpov, Zemo pretends to be a fellow Hydra operative to gain access to his information. Together, they re-activate Barnes as the Winter Soldier, and journey to Siberia to find the others. Zemo finds that Barnes is not quite the monster he seemed.
Hydra Trash Party
some of us are men (Karpov/Bucky, noncon, E)
Karpov lets the new Winter Soldiers have their way with the original; afterward, he lavishes him with special care.
Off Script (Pierce/Bucky, noncon, E)
Pierce decides to display his control over the Asset by bending it right over the table and fucking it in front of everyone while continuing the meeting. Everyone but Pierce is profoundly uncomfortable.
Misc.
depends on where you’re standing (no pairing, T)
Snapshots of Sharon’s journey from faithful SHIELD agent to Power Broker. (Rumlow didn't die.)